darling、 dearest .

i cannot pinpoint him by scent in a crowd, but i can smell his absence. the air is stale and dry when he is gone. i cannot breathe right until i am next to him again.

he will lose so much, and you will watch it all happen. because you had him first, and you would let the world break it's own neck if it means keeping him.

' just the two of us? ' ' do we need any more? '

for just five minutes, i will place him above justice.

start by pulling him out of another fire, and putting him back together with the pieces you find on the floor.

i could always rely on you, you could always rely on me .. we're a team. a group! a group of us two. and we've spent our existence pretending that we aren't.

it was always you: your unutterable name, this growl in my throat.

she is the spark within every firelight you birth. the embers in every torch you carry. she is with you. she is what gives you light.

you no longer gravitate around the earth; you gravitate around him instead. your body measures time by the number of heartbeats since you last saw him. your limbs arrange themselves purely in relation to the position of his body.

you and i are friends of empty graves, black air and black, black lungs. am i the only thing that keeps you safe when the light is gone?

and you taste like danger but i feel so safe in your arms.

this pain will linger with me still, i pray this too shall pass.

do you know one day i will kill you? i won't kill you because i have stopped loving you or because i'm jealous of you, but simply because i sometimes want to devour you.

at the end as at the start, and through all the in—betweens, i love you.

the truth is: i want to hold your hands because they are like mine. holding a knife by the blade and sharpening it. in your dreams, how much invitation to pierce you?

what am i? / you're alive.

there's always collateral damage with you and me. it's our paris.

he licked my blood off his fingers. he loves me, i thought. he completely and totally loves me.

your body is mine, and your life too. you want to be their fire, but i'm taking you to the grave with me, i'll make you shine on my dead body and nothing else. i want you to rot with me.

my heart goes out with this one. / i promise i will return your heart to you.