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may your growth be matched by people who clap for you even when it’s not their turn, by people who hold space for your expansion instead of scorecards, by people who want to see you progress even when your journey takes you somewhere that they can’t follow.

allow that reality check to deposit, leave your your mind open so you can understand the messages being left in your hearts inbox, resist denying truth even when it doesn’t feel soft. some lessons arrive wrapped in discomfort, but clarity is a gift dressed in honesty; receive it.

you can’t force the waves to flow in your direction. alignment arrives when you stop chasing the tide and start trusting the current, when you honor your pauses as much as your progress, when you allow it to find you softly like a melody you forgot you knew the words to.

come back into your own life, you’ve been missing for a while. lost in everyone else’s energy, trapped by external perception, focused on distractions instead of your divine path, come back into your own life so the love you’ve abandoned finally finds you at home within yourself.

sometimes the universe will let you manifest what you want, just to show you that you deserve better.

there is nothing more attractive and more powerful than someone remembering who they are again. seeing them swim in their true essence after an extended time stuck at shore, seeing them return back to themselves of old, but dealing with the waves differently now.

connections that don’t require you to sabotage your nervous system for anyone’s comfort, ones that never ask you to step outside of who you are to meet them halfway, ones where you can show up authentically as yourself without wearing any disguises; healthy connections only.

you may not be exactly where you want to be but who you are now, in this very moment, is deserving of applause too. every single version of yourself that you once were was a key needed to unlock the next level of your life.

the wisest people i know are able to compartmentalize each connection they keep. some people mean well but don’t deserve access to your chapters, some have good intentions but can’t hold your deepest secrets, knowing where to place people is how you keep weeds out of your garden.

when you’re truly doing the work the healing never stops, it just feels louder or more silent at different stages of your journey, but no finish line will ever appear as you work around your pain; just more beautiful awareness about your wounds and triggers as you go along.

and i had to love you from a distance. not because the love wasn’t there, but only so i could rediscover  the love i should’ve given myself.

not everyone deserves healed versions of you, not everyone deserves to admire the flowers that’ve bloomed from the cracks in your heart, not everyone can hold you without pulling your triggers, feel no guilt for releasing what you’ve grown from to welcome in who you want to be.

compromising your identity in the name of loyalty is never a fair exchange. there is no love in sinking your authenticity to help someone else rise if it means losing pieces of yourself in the process.

you are allowed to evolve without attaching guilt at every stage of your transformation. who you used to be and what you’ve left behind can turn into poison the longer you hold on; there is sweetness and growth waiting to find you outside the cocoon you’ve confined yourself in.

when the waves show you where you stand with certain people don’t resist the current, let the clarity wash over you, let the realizations reveal who is anchored with you, let the storm strip away the performative connections leaving you with genuine ones when you arrive at shore.

june, unwrap warmth that’s been hidden under my doubts and fears, cover my thoughts with softness and guard me from energy that threatens to poison love i should have for myself. filter my awareness with discernment so i recognize what is no longer mine to carry. be transcendent.

do not blame your body for not having the energy to fight other people’s battles anymore, welcome your body back to the realization that you deserve to fight your own battles too.