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— Me and Liam 🤍

i keep crying cause i'm just so tired of life. i can't decide how to end the pain. my mind isn't helping me anymore and i don't have the strength to keep going. everything triggers me constantly and i just feel so lost in a world i don't belong to. i'm so lost.

Thanks for all the memories boys I love you all

once in a lifetime you were mine.

sometimes i just wanna scream please don't let me believe we've really lost liam forever.

liam, you were perfection, my only direction. this might feel like the end of an era that comes with way too many tears but you are a miracle, whether you're here or not. everything about it was beautiful and you carried it all with so much grace. you did a great job, liam. 🩵

you won hearts.

liam, you're both the beginning and the end of our magical story and everything that made it unforgettable. you're the reason it began and the memory it will always return to. thank you and forever miss you.

i dreamed of liam…

maybe that's why we met you so early because we were never meant to grow old together. thank you for all these unforgettable years. #15YearsOfOneDirection

hope you're dancing and singing up there among the stars, you'll always be the brightest one‌ @LiamPayne ♥️

While filming Building the Band, Liam Payne joined fans in the crowd between performances to dance along to “What Makes You Beautiful” ❤️

i'm forever proud of you, liam 🤍

i've been struggling to catch the sunrise. today was the first one i've seen in 9 months.

there are these random moments when it suddenly hits me that liam is not here anymore, not out there, not breathing the same air and it just crushes me. the tears come without warning, i can't even stop them. my heart feels so restless. i miss him more than i know how to handle.

تو چقدر زیبا میخندیدی عزیزکم. صدای خنده‌هات شکوفه‌های به خواب رفته رو بیدار میکرد و رنگین‌کمونی از نور می‌ساخت. درخشش تو ابدی بود، لیام. و من همیشه دلتنگت میمونم.

have any of you truly accepted that liam is gone forever? i mean believing it deep in your heart because i can't. it's been nine months and i'm still in disbelief. i can't even look at his photos for more than a few seconds without breaking down. it still hurts like the first day

another wednesday, 16th. and he's there smiling through the screen as if time never learned how to hold him. there's something in the way the beginning and the end pass each other, right at that quiet place where the light meets the dark. liam doesn't fade. he returns, endlessly.

i hope that wherever you are, there is no pain or sadness. hope you are at peace and free, liam.

everything, literally everything reminds me of liam.

i just can't stop crying about us and all the dreams we've lost, liam.