nineteen

i kind of want to draw the sky more often but it often feels disappointing because it's never as beautiful as the real thing. i get frustrated and have to draw a boy masturbating to relax 💔

why am i so annoying😭

i wish everyone would ignore me

hauuuu,,,,, it hurts,,,,

why do i always want to vomit and get a headache from drinking 5 ml of alcohol

a small part of a drawing i made when i was 5 or 6 years old

i came home just now and no one will be here for a few hours, it’s time to drink sake 🥳🥳🥳🎉🎊

after i finished using the toilet earlier today, when i went to press the flush button i was frightened by a spider on the button but it wasn't actually a spider. it was a reflection of my hand on the metal button....

i think i should be given a reward for not cutting up my arm with a knife for four months, it was very difficult 😣

i still feel like i have burn out from the last semester. unfortunately we just have to persevere and hopefully die on the way to spare me from the machine of institutionalized education

last semester made really solidified that i don’t like university because surprisingly when there is so much assigned work that students only keep up by doing nothing but study for weeks on end, they don’t want to return

i forgot things