Claire Carmalt
@ClaireCarmalt
Professor in Inorganic & Materials Chemistry & Mum to two girlies - one lives in my ❤️💔. Tweets about grief; also my research (functional materials).
Our beautiful daughter Tory died suddenly on 28th October 2022. (1/5)
A few days off work so time to relax and enjoy a leisurely lunch. Day out in London today, one of the best cities in the world. I know I commute in every day for work but it’s nice to come in with time to enjoy ❤️
Hot and tired Henry tonight…. but never too tired for a little bit of salad 🥗🧡 Still love those tiny paws 🐾 😊
In between the heavy rain we managed to walk down to Tory’s bench today. It was so peaceful to sit there and watch the bees 🐝 on the flowers. Two beautiful lilac butterflies and three electric blue damson flies put on a beautiful show for us. Tory would approve #grief
Thinking of my beautiful daughter Tory on #NationalBereavedParentsDay Missed & loved so very much. Tory died in 2022 from a pulmonary embolism with little to no symptoms. A cruel sudden death. I try to honour her by living my life to the full but it’s hard without her. ❤️🩵💙
I love being back in London….the piano playing at St Pancras, a lovely flower display, hearing many different accents, the black cabs, car horns tooting, red buses, the fast pace……and being 1 train journey closer to home….1 delayed train journey home of course 🤣
In Nottingham as I’m doing external examining for their undergraduate chemistry programme. A little sign from Tory as we had dinner at the Victoria Hotel tonight 🩵 #grief
Perfect 30 degrees weather to help my daughter pack up her uni room 🥵🤣🤣 Definitely need a cool drink and a sit down when we are finished!!!
Happy I brought the sunny weather with me back from Crete!! Managed to have a day gardening yesterday & tidied ‘Tory’s Garden’. Now the tulips & bluebells have gone lots of summer plants & roses are giving it a wonderful splash of colour….bright & beautiful like Tory 🩵 #grief
A beautiful photo from our holiday reminded me how lonely grief can feel. Sometimes that’s positive as it gives me space to think about Tory. I also remember that there are so many people who care & have been with me on this journey for which I am truly grateful 🩵#grief
Looking out at a view like this and taking the time to appreciate it reminds you that there is still beauty in the world and things that can lift your heart 🩵 #grief
9 years ago we were here in Crete as a family of 4. Now we are only 3 but Tory is always with us. When we stopped at a bar for a drink the next song that came on was a Fleetwood Mac song, Tory’s favourite. I take this as a sign & it brings a little bit of peace ❤️ #grief
Went on a lovely boat trip & did what Tory did when we were here 9 yrs ago…when the boat anchored in the sea I jumped in for a swim even though I didn’t know if there would be lots of seaweed or fish!! Lit a candle for my darling girl when we stopped off at an island 🩵 #grief
I had a happy & sad find today at work. While looking for something in my desk drawer I found a little note that Tory wrote me one day perhaps when she was doing work experience or maybe she tucked it in my work bag. I can’t remember but lovely to see a note from her 🩵 #grief
Lovely but hard day gardening. My boys kept me company. I used my TrailCam to catch this video of them happily speed eating dandelion leaves 💚🐹🐹😆
Beautiful roses are blooming in my garden now. I love these flowers, they just look so lovely and make you feel better just looking at them 😊
Monday morning so back to work! Had such a lovely day yesterday with @4myJessBrady & our hubbies. Forgot to get a photo but we saw these two on a beautiful walk through the countryside. So nice to chat about Jess & Tory and to be with others who understand completely 🩵 #grief
Another lovely sunny day which lifts my spirits partly as it’s just so nice to spend time outdoors but also because the sun always makes me think of Tory. She loved the sun & would have thought of something nice to do on a day like today. I miss her so much #forever20 #grief 🩵
A beautiful sunny day here. I couldn’t work out what was emptying the bird feeders at night & have discovered it’s Brian the Badger. So happy to see him visiting my garden & now I leave him a few peanuts eat night he’s a good boy & just eats those and moves on 🦡❤️❤️